this is the last time

that I will have to do this. studying for an exam as a first year law student. this is the last time.
WHOA.And do you know why? Because tomorrow is my last one. Contracts, or as lovingly dubbed by my classmates, Elser's Last Stand.

For someone who has "a lot to do," i've managed to do this ^ practically knit a sweater, is what I've done. Look at that. The body finished, and started a sleeve. Don't tell my mother that I spend so much time not-studying. But sweater: hear this. Next time I take you up to work on you, I will be a 2L.

or. WE will be 2Ls, sweater. You and I are 2Ls.
I'm obsessed, both with this sweater, and with my law school "career"

Also, my pea plant has a flower. Precious :)

-TK et. al.

tragedy

Tragedy hath struck.

Tragic occurrence 1: out of yarn for the cap shawl. There is definitely less than half of the edging to go. And I ran out. I wanted to finish it before I started my sweater. But i CAN"T because i'm out of YARN, which, incidentally is necessary for knitting

Tragedy 2: The sweater. Look at it, it's so pretty. Such a lovely color; it feels amazing. Everything about it is perfect.

But it kinda looks like it will be too small right? Because this is supposed to fit over my hips. My giant, child-bearing, obese mexican hips. Doesn't look like it will fit eh?


Well. It DID fit. I only found this out after I took it off the needles and started ripping it, thinking I was going to have to start it over in a bigger size. But it fit really well. Not too snug; not too loose. Also, when I was taking the sweater off the needles, I burned my arm really badly. So much tragedy.

Also. There are two exams this week. I have done NO studying this weekend. literally, have not studied since my last exam. Hahahahaha. So... tomorrow, i guess, is the day for that. Meanwhile, I'm going to start the sweater again, continue on with my watching of Arrested Development, and then go to bed early so that I can get up early, work out for the first time in a week and a half, and get to the library by 8. tada!

That's the plan.

this day, there was property

First, not knitting. Then, knitting.
I have no idea whats up with the blue up there... weird. Anyways. School photos:
Studying for property. I like tiny up close photos of words; i think it makes me seem more intelligent

Tiny worm. I was studying ["studying" *wink*][there was no studying] outside. And he was on my hand! I took pictures of him for a bout fifteen minutes when I realized this wasn't going to work.

And then, this morning. I took an exam. this was my set up. Water. Snack. Coffee. Pens. Pencils. Highlighter. Boom.


And the piece de la resistance. cap shawl. With its bitchy knitted on border. Actually, once I figured it out, the border is easy. Its the only part of the thing that i could actually memorize. just IMAGINE what this thing is going to look like when its blocked. Oh i love it to death. It has a sad story [the yarn and the thing itself]
I had bought the yarn originally to make something for my grandma. I never did; just kept putting it off, thinking i had all the time in the world. But she passed away in January. I've been knitting for half my life [literally; since I was nine] and I never knit her anything. Tragic.
And then, i found this pattern and decided that my [ex]boyfriend's mom would like it. I thought, hey, we're probably going to get engaged any second now, at which time, this would be a great gift to give her.
So you see. this shawl is tragedy. I'm ok with that though. It gives it depth. It means something, even though I'll probably keep it myself and... i don't know. Just hold on to it. Love it; know that I made it. It's going to look so beautiful blocked and non-bunchy. Even with all my errors.

ALSO. the yarn for owls. It came today. It is so. beautiful. It's Venezia; Cascade, I think. Merino/Silk blend. the lavender colorway I think, so it's this amazing, purple grey color, and it's so soft and, best of all: it doesn't itch. at all. So i can wear it on my skin. heavens. My joy is complete.

LONG POST> DONE.

-TK et. al.

knitted-on borders are a bitch

I had my first exam this morning. Fascinating. It actually wasn't fascinating at all.
What is fascinating is that last night, I woke up every single hour between 11 pm and 7:30 am. are. you. kidding.
Nope. not a joke. real life.
How does that even HAPPEN?!

Property exam on thursday. That is the one exam that I'm super duper uber worried about. I have a lot to memorize between now and then... but. I'm kinda just letting it happen.

Meanwhile, I've been thinking a lot about... my life? Yeah. My life. Since the thing went down, my brain is topsy turvy. I'm having a hard time caring about anything; I'm having a hard time enjoying anything; I'm just. confused. I've been thinking, that maybe I don't actually want anything. Maybe there's actually is nothing in the world that can make me happy in the long term. Maybe there's actually no one.

Logically though, that can't be true. I'm just in a valley. That's all.

I've been having a lot of feelings. But the past couple of days, I've actually been thinking about them. This is nonsense. I don't care what I'm feeling I have better things to do. I'm so young. I can do whatever I want. whatever I want. Pft. I'm going to, dammit! I'M GOING TO.

I can't wait until finals are over. These are some of the things I'm going to do:
1. go totally vegan again
2. train for my half marathon
3. kiss a girl (joke)
4. like it. not a joke.
5. read Don Quixote.
6. go rock climbing.

That's just to start. I can be happy, I think, if I start doing happy, instead of doing sad.

Also. Knitted-on borders are a bitch.

-TK et. al.

oh man

So here's the deal. I am totally freaking myself out. My first exam is on Tuesday. It is Torts. I can totally get an A in Torts. Except i will not study. I will not study. I don't know why.

I am exhausted. Also, I do not know why. I'm trying to motivate myself. So. Here's a list, reasons why sarah and tk need to study:
1. if i don't, i could get less than a 3.0 and then I could lose my scholarship. and then I'd have to borrow something like three times as much as I have already.
2. if I don't, i could fail out all together, and then I'll have to go home with my tail between my legs and... do something horrid like get a job and forget about the life I wanted.
3. i want to be a lawyer. I really really really do. I do... I do, don't I? enough to study, even? enough to get over this momentary set back of heartbreak and just get on with it? It's been... a month and a half? why am I still in mourning... why can't i just STUDY?! it's not that HARD. it's not like i have anything better to do.
4. if I don't study, then I can't even say that I tried. My dad is going to be so disappointed in me. Everyone is going to be disappointed in me.
5. If i fail out, i WILL go crazy. I probably won't even go home. you know what. I have enough money in savings, i could run away to europe. the only job i could do, probably, is become a prostitute, but hey! it's a living. it'd be a story. shortly before I die, i'll write a novel about what happened. and boom. that will have been my life.

all because I didn't study. The biggest reason, really, is that I want to be a lawyer. I'm trying not to lose sight of all the fun stuff i'll get to do: appellate advocacy, talking to clients, wearing suits everyday, arguing with judges, WINNING. ah yes... winning...

I feel better already.
Also, these are my best friends. I got them into knitting. They bring me such joy. I have no right to be depressed. Ha!!

- TK et. al.

Words about knitting

Good day!
it is friday... This morning, i made a movie with some friends, in which i was the star! HA! No... not really. But i really was in a movie; or, a commercial, technically. So that was fun.

I've been meaning to show these to you:

They are fingerless gloves that I am making for my bestie. I made them up. I've not made the second yet. The lace pattern i got from A Collection of Lace. I need to fix it, because there's a funky garter stitch part that I don't like at all, so I'm going to fix that. But other than that, i rather like them. I can't wait to finish them, so i can finally give them to her.

And also, the blob:
This, is the ladies cap shawl. It is full on blob. It's rather snazzy though. I can't wait until it is done. I seriously cannot. I don't know what I'm going to do with it, though. Probably keep it. Maybe give it to my mommy... I dunno!


Finally, a couple schooly things: speaking of school, I did not study today. Not at all. It's depressing. It's possible that I will go in a little bit, to the library. It's open til two, so. Maybe this day can be salvaged.

Um. That is all.
-TK et. al.

in which there are photots!

Sister's Shawls. Still unblocked and unfinished

Tada! This is the fushia one. Taking photos in my apartment is really quite difficult. there's almost never an sun; there was a bit of sun on my porch this morning.


Gratuitous TK shot. Look how cute she is. Her lil face. She likes the plants, but generally she freaks out when I leave her outside too long.
I finished knitting the Kimono, but I haven't blocked it or finished it. finals, you see. I need to go to the library right now, actually... to study :O
the past month has been... I've been depressed out of my HEAD and haven't been able to keep up with school, so now I'm scrambling to pass my classes so I don't lose my scholarship. Passing isn't even enough. I need a 3.0. Last semester I had a 3.16... and last semester I did quite well. You understand my distress.

Anyways. Hopefully I'll get better at using my camera; and hopefully I'll have time to actually take some better photos of knitted things. Ok peace out!

-TK et. al.

Oh hey!

My camera should come today: when I get home from school, it should be patiently waiting for me to buy it batteries and a memory card, and knit it a cozy with chunky white yarn (all knitted coverings for things not usually covered in knitting should be knit in chunky white).

And then I shall photograph: my kitty; my kitchen; my KNITTING; my carrell; some friends, maybe; my books; and probably my face, just to make sure no one forgets that law school will eat your soul; also the view from my porch.

Back later :)
-TK et. al.

Oops.

Due to not being able to get my paws on a camera, I was stalling posting again.

But it's been far too long!

I finished the sister's shawls, [Will photograph eventually]

Kelcey liked the lace that I hated on her fingerless gloves, so i'll get to working on the other one.

I started a heartbreakingly cute baby kimono, and I'm almost done with it [the lady for whom i am making it goes to school with me. I very rarely talk to HER but always talk to her baby. eg: "hey baby" or "how's the baby coming". I had a phase where I called her "Incubator" for a while, and also "Baby Maker," which is oddly similar to calling someone "Fornicator"]

The shawl has not been touched because I'm tired of its foolishness... but I'll probably finish it soon. It's just sad because of what it had been originally meant for.

I ordered some yarn with which to swatch for Owls. I'm so. excited. SO. EXCITED.

Also: exams are in two weeks; Moot Court first thing tomorrow morning; I woke up at 4:30 am; and finally, last night my ex boyfriend pissed me off and made me sad at the same time. I did not think that we were ever going to be "exes".

Crazy times.

-TK et. al.